Throughout my 20 years of my life,

there are many people entering and leaving me.

As i grow up, old friends went and new friends came.

I dare to say that i treat all my friends the same.

As in, i treat them with truthfully and i am not hypocritical towards them.

Therefore, i don't really understand how come some people will leave just like that.

I had many encounter with friends who are hypocrite and some even betrayed me.

Also, some friends also left me without any reason.

As in, they just left silently without even telling me.

I have to deal with this since primary school.

When i was in primary school,

i had this 2 good friends of mine.

we were a clique and we do everything together.

i treat them as my best friends and treat them wholeheartedly.

However, i came to realized that they do not treat me the same as how i treated them.

When i tried to tell them my troubles, 

none of them are willing to listen,

let alone helped me to solve my problem.

When i was in lower secondary,

i thought my friends were true to me.

However, they are another bunch of hypocrites.

I really never think that they were bitching about me behind my back while smiling at me in front of me.

I mean, i rather you talk to me in front of me then bitching behind my back.

When i was in JC 1, 

I was very close with this girl.

I thought she was going to be my best friend throughout my JC life.

We went everywhere together, 

go for lesson together, go for cca together and go for breaks and lunch together.

However, she started to not going to school for i don't know what reason.

She didn't even tell me why she doesn't want to go to school.

Because of this, we drifted apart.

It's not that i didn't make the effort to contact her,

but she didn't wanted to reciprocate.

it's like you are always the one making the 1st move,

and that person never even bothered to do so.

you'll get tired of them after a while right?

When i was in uni 1st year,

the same case happened.

we were very close until she started not going for lecture.

When i dated her, she is always not free.

When she's free, she don't even bother to talk to me.

Hence, we also drifted apart silently.

Seriously, is it just me or it does happen to everyone?

Of course i also have many friends who are true to me.
some people were telling me that it's difficult to find someone with the same frequency as me. LOL.
so to those who are my friends.
thank you for bearing with my nonsense and listening to my rubbish.

I have many friends whom we don't meet up often.
but when we meet up we really have lots of things to say.
we can talk until the cows come home.
It's like even we don't meet up often,
we can still connect to each other in some way or another.
It's good to have friends like this.
we will be busy with our own lives but we still know what is happening to each other=)

so here is a shout out to my dear friends:
My JC friends- Joana, Clement, Shunwai, Yongsoon, Don, Huiqing, Huijie
My dancers- Roufang, Lilian, Joanna, Audrey
My judo girls- Peiwen, Kosin, Hueiyee
My girls- Evelyn, Yvonne, Ethel
My secondary school friends- Joelyn, Yuanlin
My girlfriend!- Evon
My uni friends- Amelia, Wanyin, Erine
PS. you noticed that most of my friends are from SRJC. LOL.

thank you for staying with me no matter what happens.
i know that we are all busy with our own lives,
but let's meet up once in a while when we are free k.
I also want to let you all know that i really cherish every one of you as my friend =)

here's a song dedicated to you: MY DEAR FRIEND